inconsolable - Backstreet Boys

Sometimes, even when you have the confidence and the knowledge in something, it doesn't guaranty that you will succeed in that field. Circumstances comes into matter and the other party has to be taken into consideration as well. What if what you have done or try to express does not reach to the other party? Or that the stuffs that you said or did is not in accordance to the questions or goal targeted? And when the results came out, it just give you a jolt in the senses and rearrangements have to be done in order to succeed in the same thing that you have attempted more than once. Repetition is underway, sickening it is, but still need to do done. But then, sometimes no matter how much you've tried to repeat and put the whole damn thing into your head, it still don't matter cause when you attempt the same thing again, it turns out that the whole process has no significance or whatsoever. Which is pretty disappointing seeing that we took out the time, money and strength to go through it all again only to find out that it is bullshit all along. Maybe you would say that, try again next time. Again and again until you've succeeded in conquering the thing all together. But what if there is no next time to it? What if what you do now, is not a total failure nor a total success? Feeling like being stuck in the middle of nowhere in this matter is not good. I feel like I've failed in it, although it's not counted as failing at all. I just thought that if I didn't succeed in the first place, it means that I've failed. And I don't like the feeling of failing and having to go through the same damn thing all over again. Anyhow, I've got to realize that what is past is past. There's no use dwelling in it when we've tried our best in doing what we can. What I can do now is to forget it and go on with my things. Bright days ahead with plenty of sunshine for the growth of flowers. Flowers of success.