Stay Gold - Utada Hikaru

We tend to run when we're hurting, we tend not to forgive and forget... That's the way we are when we are in love.

Isn't it ironic that we always find fault in other but not ours; blaming other when it's ours to be blamed?

Some people's world is so small and their brain so tiny that all they have are rumours, so that they can get their world moving.

Your Guardian Angel - The Red Jumpsuit Appartus

It's the month of love. Love someone like you want to be loved but don't love to the point of losing yourself. Love someone like the other person should be loved but don't love to the point of hurting yourself too much when the other person doesn't love you back. Love like how you are happy loving someone but don't love to the point you're sad and miserable everyday thinking about your own relationship and nothing else. Some people would prioritize love and relationship as the first place in their life, giving 200% of their attention to it. Any other reasons to live will be related to the relationship alone. Some people keep holding to the relationship even when it's going rotten. Hoping that it would be revived in time with 'a little ' of hard work and TLC. Some people love so much that they kept thinking back of their past relationship even when it ended pretty badly. Just thinking about the little good time and a lot of bad times would end them up crying. Some people who thought they have completely forgotten the ex would come back being sad once the ex said something or initiated a small conversation over nothing in particular. Some people love so much that they went a long way from they what they are previously. The level of patience to endure was stretch to a whole new level and beyond imagination. Some people hold so tightly to a relationship that they keep thinking about the good times to keep them going or be happy with just a small gesture or a few words.

But who am I to judge? I'm just a bystander who stands in an invisible corner quietly watching people in their relationships. All in all, this is their decision, and this is what makes them happy. So, who are we to judge?

Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

Changes are inevitable. Changes are for the good. Through changes only one will grow. Changes made someone see something new or something in a new perspective. What may be noticed by one person might not be noticed by another in the same view. Subtle changes in a scenic picture might not be noticed by the passerby or the person that does not pay attention. But the changes might make the picture expressed more through the strokes or the changes made. Sometimes, what has changed will not revert back to it's origin. So, let what has changed be changed and never try to question what made the changes but rather question has the changes made any good out of it and how are we going to adapt to the changes. So, what has changed in the picture? People who are observant and preserved on will notice the subtle changes and adapted to the changes, but people who are distant to the picture will feel a drastic change and feel the scene is no longer the same. Again we ask, what has changed?

Disappear - No Angels

Happy Chinese New Year!
Happy Rat Year!
Have a good Valentine's Day!
Happy Birthday to peoples....

Happy Ending- Mika

To me, every one has their own freedom and rights, even after they are together with someone. Being together with someone doesn't mean sacrificing your freedom and individuality to the point that you're losing yourself. What is the point of being together with someone just to lock them up and not letting them do practically everything? Just because you're the kind of person that doesn't go out or do some cool stuff, doesn't mean your other half have to follow you. This is a mean of changing someone into you yourself. In the end, the one you love is you yourself and nobody else. Cause the person you love in the first place is no longer there and is replaced by the exact replica of you. What you may not realize is that the other person might be suffocating, and dying for a quick release once in a while, and even that is taken away. Salutation and sympathy at the same time; salutation for having the great patience and sympathy for being suffocated in loving someone. I treasure my own freedom and individuality, and I do so to my friends'.

Brave - Jennifer Lopez

Lets head out to the fields,
Pick up the dandelions,
Tiny wings lift off the base,
A wish will be made.

Lets rest a moment,
Wait for the first snow to arrive,
As it hits the panes of window,
Our wish will be true.

Lets ride out in the autumn road,
Lift off with the chilling breeze,
Soak ourselves under the bright sunlight,
Dive into the ocean of falling leaves.

Lets lie awake on the roof during the starry night,
Wait for the falling star from heaven,
My secret wish,
The solstice dawn upon us and freeze the time.

Never Gonna Leave Your Side - Daniel Beddingfield

The rain drops turn into snow,
And the snow, into nothingness,
Leaving the place I stand in,
A piece of dry barren land.

I rose up and try to leave the barren land,
Eager to grasp the snow and rain drops,
A set of chains appear,
Pulling my feet back on ground.

Steadfast on the piece of barren land,
Trying desperately to break free of the chains first,
And stop to ponder next,
Of what is and what not.

The wingless and bland me,
Trying to reach and grasp the piece of heaven that don't fit in.

The Ice Dance( Edward Scissorhands Sountrack) - Danny Elfman

New year, new resolution, and a new you & me. Time for resolutions to be made and accomplished or broken. Time to analyze and correct oneself for a better person in the coming years.

1.** ***** **
2.** **** **** *** ****** *********
3.To get back the old results
4.To get a least 1 truly deserved holiday for myself
5.To save up and prepare for unexpected circumstances
6.To turn in early and rise up early
7.To read more books
8.To finally graduate
9.To secure a job after I graduate
10.To be a better person

Ordinary Day- Nick Lachey

I realize that I sometimes help friends to the extend that I couldn't believe it. It's sometimes helping them to the point of almost humiliating myself in front of strangers or maybe I've already humiliated myself, I don't know. Sometimes, I put other people first before me, often neglecting myself and end up having to swallow my dissatisfaction silently. Things had happened in the past that prompt me to do what I do today. People would say 'Let it go', but it's not that easy to let go as just saying it. I suppose the incident will be a trauma that will leave a mark in my life to teach me a great lesson on humility and trust. It is the helping hands that I have offered all this while that made me know so many wonderful people. But still, this is the act that has made people misunderstand too. My intention was being mistaken as an act of getting to fame. Haha. Well,

If I want to be glamorous, I wouldn't be where I am now.
If I want to be glamorous, I wouldn't be wearing what I'm wearing now.
If I want to be glamorous, I wouldn't be studying what I'm studying now.
If I want to be glamorous, I wouldn't be using the gadgets I'm using now.
If I want to be glamorous, I wouldn't be staying where I am staying now.

Ah well, I would still like to be grateful for the constructive comments given. Without them, I would not be able to reanalyze myself in a different way. I would think this is the correct way all the while. I have learned to be grateful and appreciate everything that comes my way as even behind the harshest thing is a piece of advice intended to change my way. So, thank you.

另一个自己- 胡彦斌

I have got to stop all these.
Got to stop pretending everything is fine.
Got to stop being like this and hurt myself.
Got to stop from falling in too deep.
Got to stop thinking like the other person really cares.
Got to stop thinking this is real when I'm only imagining things.
Got to stop and get on with my life.
Got to wake up from my dream.
Got to see what's real and important and what's not.
Got to be brave and ask for the truth.
Got to know to answer to the questions.
But,
How do I stop when I'm already entangled in the web?
How do I stop when I let myself fall too deep?
How do I stop when I keep letting myself think of the absurd?
How do I stop when I keep on hoping?
How do I stop when you are like that?
All I ask,
Is there a future?
Is there gonna be US? Or
Is is going to be Me instead?

抱歉- 陳勢安

It's all over...

当你离开的时候 - 蔡健雅

What you said made me wonder; Did I do too much? Did I bother you too much? How did a little more care turn into a feeling of annoyance? Am I that irritating? Am I that not worthy? If I am that bad, tell me straight in the face. Don't beat around the bush, playing hide and seek or playing hard to get when you don't have the slightest feeling. I am a man of ego, I will surely back off if you told me so. I don't hang around,begging people to do something. That is not me. Nor do I force people. Well, maybe I am not that worthy to be even your friend. And for that, I will keep shut till you come to me.

我不配-周杰伦

I felt like I don't deserve to be with you. Maybe it's because of my ever low self esteem and the insecurity of myself being around someone for too long. I felt like I can lose myself anytime and become someone else that is not me at all. I know that no one is ever perfect but then it's just hard for me to over this sense of feeling that has been with me since so long ago. My ego does not want me to open up to u. A lot of things that I've said might not be true and it's just the way I try to cover up what I really wanted to say. Behind the jokes are the words of truth. What is true inside is waiting for you to come and discover it. I've always been here, waiting. If only the ego in both of us could be stripped away, we would have been the people that express true things. Now, let's play the waiting game. Waiting for one of the ego to lower itself down and reveal the true person inside.

Taking Chances - Celine Dion

Some people are so full of themselves that they do not realize that the world does not revolve around them. They should understand that having a few connections here and there does not bring them around anywhere. They should also know that having a few years of experience does not necessary makes them a more matured person. They should also get to understand that having heard experiences from friends or people that they know will make them know the world more. Being over confident sometimes will bring disgust to others. Sometimes, with the few possessions that they have, it makes them think that they have achieved what a lot others have not. That may be true, but that does not give them the right to be too proud of themselves. Being humble and true to yourselves can bring a further road down. Don't be someone who is just an empty shell that is overly confident on the outside but empty in the inside and depended on others for experience or knowledge. We should constantly remind ourselves that there's always a mountain that is higher than us. Humility and bowing to the wind will prevent the grass from being taken away. Pride and boastful will cause the overly confident tree to be taken down by the storm.

Tattoo - Jordin Sparks

Appreciation. So easy to say it out, and yet so hard to show it and prove it. People constantly were asked to appreciate what they have before the lose what they have and start regretting. In reply, they would say they are appreciating what they have now, but when asked on how do they show their appreciation, most are dumbfounded. People just see what is in front of them and don't really think much ahead. What if one day you just lose everything that you have? What if the person that love you the most suddenly leave you just like that?

We often take things for granted, not realizing that the things that are given to us are all blessings to us for the hardship that we endured. It's not easy to obtain some things in our life, not easy to keep it and appreciate them either. Often, we forget the see the importance of the things that are in front of us. Instead, we tend to overuse, abuse our right and keep on repeating the same mistakes over and over, causing us to lose these items that plays an important part in our life. Dealing with a sudden loss is hard to cope, often leading to regret.

We are proud to think that the things we own will never leave us. We are confident that these things will remain by our side forever. We are greedy to think that what we have now is never enough and wanting more apart from keeping what we have now. Small gestures to appreciate will go a long way into memories. These small gestures will give a greater impact compared to money and time spent. These, are the token of appreciation, so meaningful and powerful that it will be carved into the hearts of people and memories to withstand the tests that come along. So powerful that it can make a person's day. Just a few sentences that come out from the heart, little actions that go unnoticed, or a simple gift with time and the heart that is put into it. How many of you have done these things?

Undignified - Sugababes

When there is people, there is always politics involved. This is something that I totally agree upon. The current working place that I am in is no different. It's a rapidly expanding company, the company is actively recruiting employees and training the existing ones. As a sales and marketing company, meetings and products briefing are often held, often dragging till late afternoon and often affect the progress of current tasks in hand. Among the upper management level, there is a slight politics issues that is happening. This indirectly affected the front liners and thus, the performance of the company itself. But as a fresh industrial trainee, I do not want to be involved in any of it, and just stand in the middle of all. It's up to the people in the management level to do the killing among themselves.

I guess that every working environment will sure to have that kind of person. This kind of person is such a faker. The person is good in polishing up other colleague's shoes and also the superiors till they see the person as a pleasant person and that they perform their job well. But I don't know what I did wrong, that made her have a bad impression on me, or that she doesn't really like me. I might be over sensitive, but most of the time, when it comes to stuffs like this, I will be correct. She said she deal with the situation, not against the person. But she is doing the opposite things in front of me. She said she only wants result and does not want to know how I get it done. But if that's the case, how can I ask her for details? How can I know what she wants and how she wants it done? Isn't it a bit too ironic? I guess another pro faker will see the amateur faker out. To me, yes you can be as fake as you want to be, but please do it professionally and do not let others to figure you out. Isn't it humiliating when people crack your mask in front of others and let people see who the real you are?

Explanation

I think I've got to explain somethings clear about the way I write my blog. It seems to have caused some confusions among the readers. But then,how many readers that I have to boast. Haha. Anyway, the title stated most of the posts nowadays are about songs. These songs are songs that to me, are nice to hear and kinda affect my emotion at the time. But the content of the posts are different from the title. The title of the posts does not have to reflect the content of the posts. And I rarely will post up lyrics on songs. So, please my readers, continue to read my blog even though the title are stated as song titles.

Mended By You- Sugababes

Sometimes, I think too much to the point that I'm getting paranoid over things. Being a sensitive person, a small matter would be thought seriously by me or in several times in different angles. I always wants to consider the matter in different perceptions before making the decision or giving the advice. I want to avoid being regretful in the end, or being bitter of doing the wrong things before giving it a careful thought. I always want to give my best in doing things in my life. 'If you're not the best, be the best that you can', this has been my motto all along. But this is also what cause me to set an overly high goal most of the time without realizing my own ability. Or that I know my own ability, yet I want to set the level of the goal to challenge it and end up being disappointed myself. Every time I get a new job and a new environment, I would get all stressed out and paranoid. I expect myself to able to deliver what they require within a short period of time, forcing myself to learn as much things as possible. The paranoia within me would cause me to fumble in the end, sometimes causing mishaps to myself. Maybe this is caused by workload and expectation that is given to me from the past few jobs as a senior in those jobs. Or maybe it's just me who ponder too much on immaterial stuffs. In the end, this is Me. This is who I am. You can ask me not to think too much; but if I didn't, I wouldn't have been sensitive enough to sense what is wrong with the people I care, the environment that I live in and the small little changes that other people wouldn't notice. This is what has enabled me to live around and deal with difficult peoples in my life. This is what made me who I am today and who I will be tomorrow.

On the other hand, I thought that something that happened last week caused me to give quite a loud expression today in the public. Analyzing it over, I thought that the expression was inappropriate in the public. Maybe my words were quite loud or that my hand gestures were big, but the info that was given to me was not suited for my behavior. Clearly, the 2 people that were involved in the situation have little connection to me, but it was most probably due to the image and perception that I had on one of the subject was crushed from what I heard. I've always perceived 'Never judge a book by it's cover' as half true; But this time it proved me wrong again. But then, it's never my right to be judgmental about people that I barely know. The issue now is that I think my actions were a bit over; And that it will not be the same again the next time the same situation occur.

A quote last but not least, let's ponder. 'Honorable man are all built the same. Do you know when to walk away? Do you know when not to take less than you deserve? If you do, then you are an honorable man.'

Birthday time

Present that we bought.
The present itself. Cost a bomb.
Happy birthday Kelvin!!! Had fun or not?hehe.

Change- Sugababes

Finally,
The Drought is over,
Spring is taking Rain and lots of Seeds with it,
To sow, and to flourish into beautiful Sakuras in the Summer,
Bringing scenic view of petals dropping,

To replace the Winter that prolonged the Wake;
New lives are emerging from the ground,
Hopes afloat replenishing what is lost,
A new Utopia is reborn from the white ashes,
Just as the Phoenix arises from it's own ashes;

I am Me, I am not myself,
I spread my Wings, and with it I see the new World,
In this Garden of Heaven that belongs to Me,
In the everlasting Rays of Summer that shines ever so brightly;

The Key for this Garden of Heaven lies in among the illusions outside,
Past Trespassers will be forbidden forever,
Only the Rightful One will have the AllSeeing eye,
Past the Thorns and Beasts to the Pond in the middle of the Garden.